Lost

Today, I experienced a feeling of 'lost'. Its really hard to describe. So basically this is what happened: because I got braces, I found out that I can't actually make a sound on my flute anymore. Normally, I don't really like practising the flute, but today, when I saw that I couldn't even make the slightest sound, I felt a deep sense of 'lost' and depression. For me, the flute has always been part of me, and who I am. I've been playing it for quite some time, so I've become attached to the instrument. I used to be able to play it whenever I like, when I'm feeling happy or down. Now that I can't play a single note, I felt a feeling of both sadness and also a feeling of being lost, and not knowing where I am, like a part of me has been taken away. But I talked to the orthrodontist, and he told me to just get used to the braces and find someone who can help me adjust to the changes. I felt relieved afterwards.
At the beginning of this year (2011), I also had another experience with loss (well, almost-lost). My rabbit was really sick at the beginning of the year. There was blood everywhere, and at one point, she was dying. She was on the verge of dying, and she was at the vet. Those three days, I couldn't sleep, and kept crying over and over again. Therefore we were really relieved (and REALLY lucky) that she survived it. But for about 5 months continually, she kept bleeding, but gradually, through healthy eating, etc. she became better. Now, she is really healthy.
But that experience taught me a lot. It taught me to cherish everything. Although actually contrary to the popular saying "You don't know what you've got, until you lose it", it was more of "You know what you've got, you just didn't think you'd lose it." On some level, it has the same meaning, that we have to cherish everything around us, not just the ones we think we'll lose, but especially the ones we never expect to lose.